Snow topped roofs and fluff on the ground. KABOOM! Rain, thunder & lightning. This happened at he beginning of the winter season too. Weird...

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So I've been up since Saturday morning. I've not gotten a good moment of sleep since then. The best it's gotten is a droopy head then I'm back awake again. I just took 3 Tylenol PM about a half hour ago. Hope this helps. I'm worn out. I'm fatigued, my joints hurt and I'm totally exhausted. I hope these things work tonight. :(

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I've gone as far back as October of last year now. I've enjoyed the fatures that I've got from Blogger versus LiveJournal. Granted, I miss the multiple photos, moods and music selection, but if I really wanted those items, I'd add them in by hand. I'm comfortable with the transition back to Blogger.com.

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So I was looking for a new job online since I can't sleep and I ran across this one on midmichiganhelpwanted.com. It's at another bank. It also seems to be at a bank that I've never heard of in the area. They are looking for sales account executives at a base salary with incentives. Here's a snippet of the posting...

As part of our Sales Team, you will market our contemporary financial and insurance products to new and existing customers. Responsibilities include achieving your personal sales goals through internal and external marketing of our loan products, assisting the Branch Sales Manager with loan documentation, disbursement of proceeds, processing counter payments, and audit. Successful candidates will have excellent communication and interpersonal skills, be independent and self-motivated, and possess a strong and competitive sales drive and a commitment to excel. Management opportunities are also available based on successful performance and completion of our management training.

Sounds like what I've been trained to do with a different set of materials. Me thinks I'll go for it.

*applied*

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It's 3:14 am and I'm up. I can't sleep. I had a wonderful night with Fresh and a pretty normal night with Nyra. Recent discussions have been bothering me and I've been getting a little stir crazy since my car has been out of commission for the past couple of weeks while I wait for my parts to come in. My only solace is that I started to get tired after 1 while watching TV. Ususally, I'll just shut it off as I drift away but this time was different. I am starting to feel weird. I don't know if it's an emptiness or some odd void that has been created with my recent problems... But I know something is bothering me. I just can't figure out what it is. After shutting off the TV I attempted to close my eyes and hope to drift away like normal. My eyes weren't ready to close and I just keep getting this weird nagging feeling. Not the normal thing where I just feel like crying and it will make me feel better in the morning, puffy eyes and all. I am coming to a major crossroads in my life again and it feels like it's all under construction. I just want to go to school. I think that's what would make me feel better. I'd go work at a 7-11 and go to school. At this point, I don't think that it would be a step backwards in my personal goals/status. It would be a bit of give and take. I'd drop my importance in the work force and look at the long term of upping my self-worth. Unfortunately, I've missed my deadline for this term when the end of business day of the 6th passed. My next step is to go and save up for the next entry mid-term in February. I don't want to miss that spot either, it all depends on if I have the funds to do it. I almost did it this month on my own, but a new slew of billing emergencies came in and now all I have is $40 at best. That's before I figure out what else I have to pay. If I had a better idea of my job with bank was. I'd be able to move on with my life and find a base job to make things better. Or even if I didn't continue with the company, I'd like to know what the hell is going on with my severance. I still haven't even gotten that information yet either! Oh well, at least my new side endeavor is coming along nicely and my life will be back on track. I guess I can take the time to look for a job online right now to help fill the time.

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